"And if you can’t detect the sarcasm, you’ve misunderstood"
Hotel party with @nykorodriguez
My beshies keep me sane
So binuhay ko nanaman tumblr ko. Why? This will be my online journal, and I will be as open as I can. This is the real side of me. Take it or leave it bitchezzzz
Do you ever feel like so much damage has been done?
Would you ever go back?
Are you proud of who you are?
Do you even know yourself?
Am I being punished?
Why am I always so angry?
What’s wrong with me?
How come when something good comes along, something bad happens in an instant?
Is this just a phase?
Will things ever be alright?
Is everyone capable of forgiveness?
When will I be free?
Why is it so easy to say, but hard to do?
Why can’t they understand?
"Happiness is a choice."
This is something I strongly believe in.
I haven’t exactly been having the easiest year, although I’ve had good things happen to me hindi naman natin maiiwasan na may mga nega din na nangyayari. I love my job, yet sometimes it really can be stressful, especially with the whole not sleeping and people judging you aspect of it all. I love my friends and family, but sometimes no matter how hard you try to explain certain things to them, they don’t understand. It doesn’t make them less of a friend, but sometimes admit it, it gets annoying when you can’t get your point across. Problems with the heart, I WAS (I’m 20 now) a teenage girl, and of course I’ve had my fair share of teenage problems, falling in and out of love, making sacrifices and getting hurt along the way. School, love it, want it, but I really HAVE to make more time for it.
See, there are so many in things in life that I could waste my time sulking about, I could simply lock my door and cut myself off from the world but instead, I choose not to. But then again you might just think I’m suffering from a case called “First World Problems” hahaha. A lot of people ask me, how come I’m always so positive and its like no matter how bad things are going for me I can still manage to put a smile on my face and be happy about things. One answer, because I allow myself to. I allow myself to be happy. It doesn’t necessarily mean that I don’t get sad, trust me just like any other person, I still do, but I handle situations in a better way now.
I let it happen, I let it affect me and then I address the issue and simply GET OVER IT.
Life is so beautiful to waste it on people and things that don’t matter and will only bring you down.
So to all my beautiful followers, just promise me one thing?
Choose to be happy.
See you guys on Saturday at Heima Brixton! Music, food, drinks and a bazaar! #UkayAlalay will have a booth there and all proceeds will go to the victims of YolandaPH! Donations will also be accepted there as well! Most of the items are from celebrities like the Magalona siblings and the Young sisters! Help spread the word! Btw there’s no entrance fee here! See you!
my November 2013 playlist
Yesterday I went to Subic Bay and helped out my friend, Iyah with her project for school. Since she’s a masscom student they had to make an interview segment for the topic “The Role of Women in Media” so they chose me to be their guest! Basically they asked me questions and I simply answered them but what was so amazing about this experience was that I learned something from it. I learned that the media has given such stereotypes to us women! It’s either were dumb, sensitive, all they think we do is PMS, if you don’t have a job you’re simply known as a stay at home wife and they don’t think that’s a hard job; to make sure you guide and raise your children right or if you do have a job you’re a heartless power hungry bitch. Of course those are what they show in movies and TV and it sucks because there’s more to us women than that! But at the same time women “mostly” blame men, that they don’t treat us equally but I personally believe that sometimes us women are also at fault, bottom line is if you allow them to treat you that way then they will! So take matters into your own hands and stand your ground ladies.
Another thing I realized is that the media has such a big influence on the people and that it’s such a shame to see people use this for the wrong things: to spread hate. I’m not a perfect person and I have personally said bad things about other people on social media and in real life, which is something I regret of course because I have gotten my fair share of bullying in real life and online so now I know how it feels like for people to say false and hurtful things about you.
Just because women want to be treated better, mostly by men it also doesn’t mean that we want you to treat us like men, we are still women and have to be respected and deserve your chivalry. As women we should stand together and not just fight for our rights alone, but for equality itself.
Sometimes showbiz sucks. I love acting and modeling but everything else just kinda sucks. I sometimes feel myself getting lost in it, I try to pull myself out of all the lies and “fakeness” but still bits and pieces of me are already stuck there. I try not to listen to the people whispering in my ear, I try not to be “showbiz”, being as real as I can be, but then again most people can’t handle the “real me” cause I have to always act a certain way. Man, you won’t understand until you’re actually in this world.